A Friend's Thoughts On God Being In Control

When I live like God is in total control, they say it's "the peace that passeth all understanding"...which is great if you're King James, but I call it "I can live now." I can get on with life because He gives me peace. I call it "functional relaxation." Sometimes I miss out on that, even when it comes. When God gives me functional relaxation, instead of resting in it and enjoying it, I'm trying to figure out what I did--the formula, the steps, the process--whatever I did or didn't do to make that happen so I can get it, keep it or regain it. I act like it's all me, when all the time it's Him. Never has been me.